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Last semester where most of my buddies back to where they belong to...I still stay in Kampar...although my home is so much nearer than they are...

Last weekend,It's our turn.
Finally, after so long(I cant remember exactly how long it is),I managed to come back to my lovely home.

My home, still a messy home... things are everywhere...It is not tidy at all...

Since 2007, when both of us study in university, my home just left 4 people.
After 2009, My home just left 3 people living there. coz my sister went to work in Genting Highlands.

I recalled those memories where 6 of us still living together...The house is full of noise...not like now...very quite...just the sound from TV...

I think I had to come back more often...
I do have a mega project to be done...
that is to give tuition to my brother...
hope that he can do better in his study...
as well as his behavior and character...

That weekend, was a special one...coz all six of us back to home....

Are there anymore days like this in the future?

Is it few years later...
when we all get married,
we will only meet togather once in a year that is during Chinese New Year?

I really dont hope to be like this...
This "culture", we can break it...


We all had grown up, we all flied away from home...
for work,for study...
but,
we shall never forgetting,
the way back to home...
back to where we belong to...

Does good result guarantee us a better and successful life ahead?

Does good result guarantee us a better and successful life ahead?

This question, I always keep thinking for the answer.

I talked to my buddies exam is not everything in our lives.
Results is the entrance pass for us into the real world.
With good result, the process may be smoother compared to poorer result.

But, that doesn't mean those who get poorer result, they will never succeed in their lives.and those who get good result will definitely ensuring a good and successful life.

I know, we always being told by our parents that we must study hard to get good result so that we can work in good company and thus we can live a better life.

wasn't it so? in reality?

What if I am those kind of person that, no matter how hard I tried to study, my result is still very poor. Does it mean I am not going to live a better life as what others can?

I don't think so.

The society is placing too much emphasizes on results and certificates.
and, people like to compare.

we cant get rid of all these...
it is happening everywhere, every situation...

Compare how good others lives are with themselves...
Compare what others have with themselves...

All this,
It is just so stressful for the youngsters...for me

why always comparing with others?

Does comparing help you to improve?
Or
does it actually makes you jealous of others good?

when we less compare to others, we can live happier.
Less comparison, less frustration.
because, everybody is different.
What others can do very well, you may not able to do it as good as them.
and what you can do very well, others may not be able to do it as good as you can.
Every individual is unique.
That's why, comparison is useless.

Leave away all the jealous,sadness, angriness and grievance
no comparison
just live a simple life
that's what I want my life to be.

A simple me.

and for sure
My life will be COLOURFUL.

Change is needed

I do plan for my life.
I do set goals for my life.

I know what I want in my life.

but,

I don't know why it's so difficult to achieve my goals.


Probably,

I am not hard-working enough.
I did not properly planned my time.
I am lazy.
I always sleep in the lecture class.
I always do last minutes work.

That's why it turned up to be like this.

I always talked to myself not to do last minute work because later I will sure be regret.

But, I think

I never change my behaviour.

or probably, my action to change is simply insufficient.

what to do then?

continue to be like this forever?

no way!!

I don't want my life to be like that...

I will

Make a change today!!

My first Appeal

Finally,today, I had made up my mind to appeal my AAP result.

I had been struggling so long to make this decision.

I appealed my result because the lecturer said some papers are marked by the tutors and he assumed they had marked correctly. The lecturer actually dint double checked for every paper.I think there is room for mistake.

I hope my AAP result is a mistake.
I hope my appeal will be successful.

God, once again I pray to you, please let miracles happen to me...please please please...
I know You are with me.

Sometimes, I don't know whether praying does make chances to my life or not.
But, I still believe in God. I believe Your power and I believe in fate.

If this is what you want my life to be, I will accept it.

Miracles please please please

Before it happened,
You already know the worst situation that will going to happen to you.
so, what for worrying so much?

Still, somehow, I cant stop thinking of it...

If the problem can be solved with money,it is always not a problem.
But, the problem is...I dont have money!!
so, it will continue to be a problem for me...

Enough!
What ever happen to me, I will accept it...
Life will be its own way where it want to be...

yet,
Deep in my heart, I yearn for miracles...

Life still goes on~

Yesterday, my classrep sent a message to me asking whether both of us want to repeat Advanced taxation or Advanced Accounting Practice in this short semester.

Yet, it is another big question that frustrated both of us so much !!

I dont know the best answer for this question!!

I asked opinion of Jo and Jie Jie...

The conclusion was as follows:

1. Even if I repeat the subject, there is no gurantee as to whether it will be exempted in ACCA or other professional papers as the syllabus are always changing.

2. Even if I repeat the subject,there is possibility that I may not get a better grade.

3. I am still not sure whether I will take ACCA or not.


Therefore, why repeating? My life is full of uncertainties...

How my life would be after I graduated?
Whether or not I will be a proffesional accountant?

There is no certain answer.

Even if I dint do well, that doesn't mean I have failed in my life.
Even if I dint do well, that doesn't mean I will not succeed in my life.

Exam is just a test, to test how much you have understood for the subject.
To use it as the yardstick of my success, it is simply inadequate.


Apart from all these,

Life still goes on even I had failed!!

It's over

This post, I will talked about my sad story. It's over has lots of definition to me...
firstly, my training is over and secondly my result is GAME OVER !!!

Kinda sad sad sad sad sad sad .......haiz...what have I done for the past semester? My result is totally unexpectedly that bad.
I am not going to blame anyone...just I need to work harder and harder and harder...

I think I had done all my best to make it .

Why? Why? Why? Why????? Tell me why please...

God, this moment, I need you !! so much!!

Please let go all my worries!!!

Please....I beg you...

Again,

What's going to happen to me for the rest of my degree life?

It is really All OVER????



Well, I guess I have an answer for myself...probably a draft one...

It's all

depends on how you think... If you think it's over, it will be over...If you think it's not over, it will never be over!!

Life is about moving on...you cant keep on thinking about this forever...So, do what you can to make a CHANGE in your life!!!

To be honest,
you are so much better than the others out there...so,what for to be so sad??

At least, you still have tomorrow...and
At least, you still have friends and family to support you...


Aren't you so much better than the others?

Be grateful for what you have...

remember that...

always...

and

the sunshine will be there just for you!!

'Shopaholic'

Today's afternoon, I went to Sunway Pyramid with Ming See and her boyfriend. This is the first time I been here. We have 白粥油条 for lunch. It's delicious. After that, I shopped alone in the shopping complex coz don't want to be the "light bulb" of them.

Well, It is another first time experience shopping alone...Usually, I will shop with family or friends. Kinda boring, coz every shop seems like branded shop and I don't have anything to buy too. So, I just walked around the shopping complex.

Somehow, my phone battery low,thus, I sat on a chair which is nearest to the plug. Eventually, I had sat there for about 2 hours. What have I done actually?

Then, I go to Popular to read some magazine. I wanted to sit down and read "The Last Lecture",but I was too sleepy to do so...not even finish reading a page, I already fell asleep. Besides, I don't know what's wrong with the phone, it turned off itself. Ming See called me many time and din't picked up the phone...really paiseh... Luckily, we manage to exit the car park area in time, just gam gam before any extra fees charged.

We have lunch at Bukit Puteri,and we ate 雷茶.It's yummy too... hope next time I can bring my family here to taste it as well...There are lots of eatery outlets here. Nice one!!

My life during practical training.

Finally, I got acess to internet and update my blog...

There is no internet access in the hostel that I stayed during my training period. At the office, we can only log on to SAP and Intranet. others website is strictly prohibited. The only tool that connects me to the world is the Digi Free Access to Facebook.

Therefore, most of the time people see me playing my hand phone...That's my ONLY toy!

Actually, there is a TV at the hostel. It has been years I din't watch TV since foundation. TV shows to me is not that interesting. I watched TV because I got nothing to do, just to fill up my spare time.


For the past two weeks, my practical training has been very smoothly. I think it is marvellous! I got to know a lots of things and met with different people. The plant visit on friday(8/10/10), it's impressive!! The power plant is just astonishing, amazing and awesome!!! The plant is a great creation. I took a lots of photos, and wanted to show off to my buddies!!

The people there is very nice to us.Thank GOD!Sometimes I think, why am I worry so much? The training turns up to be completely different from what I expected. Things that I worried the most did not happen. so, What for worrying so much at the beginning? The result can be totally unexpected. JUST LET IT BE...Life will be in its own way...

After two weeks of training in GSP, I can imagine what my working life would be after I graduate. In fact, we are given choices, to work at Wisma Genting or here(Kuala Langat). The working environment here is less stressful. People is nice. Not much of Office politics that worried me the most. I think I have an answer. Till then, things can be changing...It may be or may not be what you expected...

I am grateful to my colleagues and Ming See and her family for helping me during my training period... Thank you very much!!